Thursday, 5 July 2012

seeing the real me

I have recently lost 23kg. I am feeling amazing, I have changed my life. My friends, colleagues, family tell me i look great all the time, but I still see the fat me in the mirror. It's really weird how your brain can trick you. I know the number on the scales is less. I know that the jeans i couldn't do up at Christmas time now fall off. I know that I've lost weight, yet there she still is, in the mirror, 2 chins, looking 8 months pregnant, puffing when she walks, ME. I wish my brain would hurry up and catch up to my body. It works the other way too. When you don't realise how bad things have gotten. I've always struggled with my weight. I am a classic yoyo dieter. Something clicked this year and for once I'm doing it the right way, the hard way. Even though I've been fat for a long time, I've never been comfortable with it. I know there are plenty of people out there embracing their curves these days and I am happy for them but to ME being fat has always equalled a decline in health and failure. I still have some more weight to lose. I'm hoping I will see the real me in the mirror very soon.

Have you experienced this? Your brain tricking you and not showing you what's real?


  1. Naaa. That NEVER happens to ME! Well, ahh, ummm, OK, I might have been telling a whopping big furfie. I guess you do get good at telling those to yourself. Funny thing is, that those furfies feel like the truth and trying to look in the mirror and tell myself I am beautiful and have nice brown eyes FEELS like the furfie when it's the actual truth (according to those around me anyway)! So what's up with that?

    You have been an inspiration this time though Shan. Keep on keeping on and before you know it, the fit Shan will be rocking in front of that mirror every time you get a look in.